Abstruse?

Well I don't know if I really am that abstruse; I've always considered myself someone who's easy to understand. Or at least maybe to myself. All you need to understand me is a little bit of humour, the ability to tolerate lameness and cornyness, as well as a certain degree of quirkyness. There are times when I don't understand myself and why I do certain things: I either take that to mean that I'm changing, or I just succumb to the random course of action when I can't be bothered to think through what I'm doing. Just go with the flow and be at one with the world.


I've been a little out of sorts lately, doing impulsive things that I wouldn't otherwise do. Oh well or at least, didn't have the opportunity before. Freedom is great, but everyone knows freedom isn't free at all. I only wonder now if the price I will pay for my freedom is far greater than what I have to pay for it.

So I'm on a short trip to D.C for the Thanksgiving weekend, and I had a round of mahjong with my kakis. And guess what? I got a 十三么 first round. Hooray me!


Hmm I see my thoughts flying around the room, but I really can't care enough to sort them out. But as I was saying, I've been a little out of sorts. And its probably because I don't know where I am right now. I am in a state of limbo right now--neither here nor there. Neither happier nor sadder. But always more worried. For myself and the people around me.

I guess I really am more complicated than I make myself out to be. I'd like to think that I'm a simple person with simple desires, and that's what I really do see when I look in the mirror. A very average person with some quirks. Strange ideas and how to bring them to fruition.
--I see myself as an AhPek. Someone who takes himself for who he is and what he likes to do. Someone who values family and the friends he has. Someone who delights in the simple joys that life brings: good food, some drinks, and quality time chatting (not to mention lanning, mahjong, and the like).

I don't think I have huge dreams. I suppose that that's a sure way to hit the tree trunk, but then again, what's life really about? I don't think I want to spend my life shooting for the stars, when the real stars in my life slowly fall down from the sky as I pass them by. That may be a really slack way to think about things, but then again I think I'm growing too fast for my own good.

Anywho. If you're in Singapore in December/Jan, facebook me or something we should meet up. =D

Feeling the need for Censorship

I think I've figured out why I haven't blogged for so long. It's because I believe perhaps my life is to risque: and all the fun stuff that I have been doing that I want to blog about, I have to keep under wraps. Thus, no posts!

Well there's something I do have to mention today though: Yesterday I was playing mahjong with some of my Kakis that I mentioned earlier, and I got a 大三元 that was also a 混一九 or 混清老头 ... Quite amazing, that one considering its probably rarer to get than 十三么. That's probably the highlight of my mahjonging next to my 绿一色 that I got last year.

So I'm in Cornell now. Just to see some snow cos it might not snow in New York, and there's just something peaceful about seeing a suburban town covered in a thin blanket of white snow. Even though I hate being cold/out in the cold, this is something I know I will miss right when I set foot in Changi Airport again.

Anyways will try to update more, and thanks for the comments: it's just amazing how people still remember this address... *KF exposes his thick skin*

<3 you long time!

Too Long

Its been 4 months since I last updated, so I guess that makes me a horrible person. So many things have happened since then. For one, I'm single as of 11 Nov. For another, I really really love playing mahjong with my Kakis at Stuyvesant town. No pictures yet, I don't have a camera and I'm way to lazy to import pictures from Facebook. Even though I guess I should.

Thanksgiving is coming and I'm not really going anywhere.. Maybe to Cornell just to get some quiet away from the city and explore the college town life that I never got to have.

School is about to come to a close for me and I don't know who what or where I'll be working (for/as/at). I guess it'll take some time for me to figure that out. Meanwhile, I should try to enjoy my last month and a half here right? While making sure I score well for my classes, of course.

I don't know why I don't blog anymore. Maybe I'm just no longer ever in the mood to chronicle my day or my thoughts.

Z: Tell me about you
K: No la I'm boring tell me about you
Z: We always talk about me, I want to hear about you
K: My life so boring, I'd rather hear about you. Your life is more interesting
Z: My life where got interesting? Yours is more interesting!
K: I think I know why we think each other's life is more interesting: If our own lives were so interesting we'd wake up in the morning, look at the mirror and say: "Wa so awesome I'm so interesting!"

Or something like that. Strangely it was funnier when it happened.