Thursday, January 29, 2009

Updates and Reminisces

So its been a really long time since I blogged proper, and so many things have happened since then: foremost on my mind is still the passing of my friend Joshua-- a tragedy I have yet to come to terms with. Also, happy 2009! And of course, Happy Chinese New Year everyone, Gong Hei Fatt Choy! I attended 2 weddings, my cousin Kay and my cousin Ying got married within 2 weeks of each other... So exciting! A wedding dinner I can actually remember attending. Well, it was nice seeing them so pretty and happy, but I found out it's more stressful than anything, seeing as ROM is usually done before that, and it's pretty much just for traditional custom's sake to have the proper Chinese wedding.

I don't have my camera with me: or at least I have refused to bring it with me for quite awhile already, as you loyal readers have found out (or new readers will come to learn), since I actually sometimes find it stressful to carry the camera around. And also, I don't like using Olympus cameras (which is the camera we have at home). So... Too bad, no wedding photos here.



So what have I been doing lately now that I'm back in Singapore for good (in the forseeable future)?

Well, I've been catching up with family mainly, and just hanging out with some buddies. Some more than others, since I have a cashflow problem right now: I need to boost my cashflow in, and/or minimise my cashflow out. And some friends just live too far away and only have time at night... Which means expensive cabfares =( so I meet them less.

I've played mahjong with family, quite alot. Am getting better, but still need to adapt to the 3 player Msia/Sg version that they now play. I've also cut down on alot of things, DotA being one of them. I guess it's a good time to let it go, it's ceased to be a good way to keep in touch with certain friends... For now I don't play at home anymore, just at lan shops if my friends call me out for it.

Who have I met up with?

Well, mainly my family (incl cousins in msia: esp Becks and Ken, miss u guys), JD and frenz, Weng and frenz, Zoe, Khairil Imran Khenghui and other RI time people, Houston, Biz ppl once, Keane once, Study group once (twice by this weekend!), Huishan once, mm that seems to be about it. Oh and Sgt Alvin once.


Whats up?

So, just the day before, something got me thinking about relationships and how they've progressed... or rather, how the relationships in my life have influenced me and made me who I am. It so happened that earlier that day I had chanced upon a bag of notes/letters: some were courtship note replies, and some were just platonic (at the time), and some were full-fledged love letters =D

So I started reading, and I didn't really stop till I had finished them all. Some things I found out surprised me:

For one, I just realized that I actually used to be more attractive somewhat... Not just being BHB here but that there's something in me that I used to have that is no longer present. I'll knock your head if you're thinking "KF's virginity!" Perhaps it's my optimism, my innocence, my lameness... no wait it's still present... perhaps my heart has changed?

And I think it has. Hmm Its 7:30 am and I'm not sure where I should go from here, but let this be the resurrection of a more reflective me, and more reminiscing to come.

Yours Truly,
Singapore AhPek ex-Beng #1

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Rest Well Joshua

You will be remembered.