Updates

be forewarned that in this post i will attempt not to use punctuation or capitalisation of letters for the sole purpose of amusing myself

for those of you asking how ive been be glad to know that the weather is warming up after another snowstorm in the northeast region of the states i had the flu for three days but it was great experiencing warm weather after such a cold winter i am well despite a lack of sleep i havent exercised for awhile but im still in good shape things are really fine with the girl and were having a good time in new york aside from school

its been a long time since ive posted anything of substance but then again i hope youve never doubted my possession of it anyway things have been going great i guess given the fact that i do have a life that many dream of but may never get to experience my only regret here is that i am not more academically inclined because i have always expected more from myself than i have given and academic achievement has not really been my forte as much as our society values its virtues given its place as a ticket to a better life or so we are led to believe thats not to say that i have given up trying but rather i have come to a perspective about life that doesnt place academic excellence above much else academic achievement yes but not at the cost of living life the way you want to i shall term that as academic overachieving even though to you and i there is probably no such thing as overachieving


turmoil is my favourite boggle word because its the example of a seven letter word which is just awfully impressive for boggle even though i have uncovered seven letter words while playing boggle but nonetheless turmoil does seem to represent a fair bit what i have felt my life to be thus far this semester while it is true that turmoil hardly means what it does in my case but you know how humans have this little mouse in each and every one of them that asks for sympathy of some sort or perhaps requests some empathy sorry for this long windedness anyway but my point was that during the course of this semester ive experienced alot in terms of relationships and other inexplicable neuroses yes im over exaggerating again but my point here is that this has been a thrilling portion of my life not because i have travelled across five oceans and seven seas but rather that the combined effect of each emotion i have felt this year has led me to believe that life really is not boring when there are no ups and downs its the anticipation of ups and downs that really prepare us for the events that present themselves in the way we choose to see it

two nights ago i picked up a book i had been gifted two years ago called dont sweat the small stuff... and its all small stuff and started reading it again a miracle of sorts considering those of you who know me well know full well that i havent spent much time reading anything at all besides this one period last summer when i started devouring books on leadership nutrition and business of the hundred little gems of wisdom in that book i needed only to read till advice number thirteen when i realised that i used to be greater than the person i have become of course thats not to say that im no longer a great person well actually im far from being great but you know what i mean but being overseas has somewhat changed the way i see the world and how i react to the changes and events around me

these are among the things i have found about myself
i have become even more jaded than i used to be after the army
i have almost always done what i believe i should do not because i really want to but because i condition myself to accept that that is what i should want to do
i have an overreliance on my own smarts to get the job done to my own standards
i have been satisfied so often that hunger does not come naturally perhaps because i have a small frame lol
i have not dared to go crazy since my ri days
i have not found a direction in my life i can be proud of although i can say that the options i have are awesome no pun intended you finance junkies
i have lived a blessed life with my eyes closed opening them once a term just to see im still on the road
i have a highly competitive personality that i try to play down with regards to things that dont matter to me so revealed to me by dota
i have friends i should never take for granted yet i take them for granted anyway
i really like good food
i am gastronomically adventurous only if someone else will eat with me
i forget more than i remember
i am a slave to time and activity
i have a vision of success but no real desire to fully achieve it
i do all my homework
i dont do all my revision on time but still do fine
i have mood swings i try to even out through activity
i find it hard to live without a phone
i prefer to share in the good times and be alone through the rough



i know all this sounds rather cryptic but i think its quite a good explanation for the things that have happened to me this semester what do you think

i just realised that this form of writing is almost entirely the stream of consciousness style propagated by james joyce in ulysses so if you enjoyed reading this you should read ulysses which by the way has been rated novel of the twentieth century by some literary association the name of which i cannot remember

i regret the lack of pictures on this blog but i made a choice not to bring my digital camera back to new york so until i get a new one i should live with it i also regret the lack of time or creativity to blog more or perhaps its just a general lethargy to blog that has settled upon me after all who still reads this blog anyway everyones got their own busy lives to lead and i admit i have not been catching up on blogs either but what the hey ill get back down to it

in closure i have some words from a spam mail that i found glaring at me from my inbox i guess its somewhat rare that we actually get stuff worth reading from spam but heres one of them aha this is one of the lessons from that aforementioned book called everyone is enlightened except you which asks you to derive lessons from everyone or everything no matter how you feel about it or them here goes

Be careless in your dress if you must, but keep a tidy soul.
You see few people here in America who really care very much about living a Christian life in a democratic world.
Respect the child. Be not too much his parent. Trespass not on his solitude.
We seldom call anybody lazy, but such as we reckon inferior to us, and of whom we expect some service.
Life gives nothing to man without labor.
A am a great friend of public amusements, they keep people from vice.
We'll teach you to drink deep ere you depart.
The tenderest spot in a man's make-up is sometimes the bald spot on top of his head.
A hero is someone we can admire without apology.
It is not the want, but rather abundance that creates avarice.
To love abundantly is to live abundantly, and to love forever is to live forever.
The difference between the impossible and the possible lies in a person's determination.
I work in a strange business, and trust is a word that's not even in the vocabulary.

well since i didnt write those words but just copied and pasted im not violating my own rules for this entry ha

do mail or post a reply if you actually read through all this you deserve an award for it my gep is back