Enlightenment
Sometimes i stop in the middle of an activity, and think to myself: so what am i doing right now? Of course, oftentimes i do that, and my eyes slowly close as i probe my inner mind...
But nevertheless have you had that kind of experience before? The kind that makes you stop and think: "yes. i know whats going on now. Yes. i remember what i must do. YES! i must! i will! i am! I!"
Well i kinda made a small step today, remembering: "Oh yeah i have to read up my acct textbook as well as my computing one and do my supplementary problem set for econs." and "Oh yeah econs mid terms are in 2 weeks."
2 WEEKS!
And to think school's barely started!
Sometimes i feel that i accord too much importance to the wrong things (just as many of us do), and not enough importance to the things we need to focus on. But it so happens that most of us feel the need to excel in the things that we care about, because its a passion, because its important for a side of our well being, and because we want to feel pride in these things that have shaped who we are (or will go on to shape us). And perhaps its a shame that the world doesn't and cannot see people for who they are, for the passion that people have in the pursuit of the things that matter to them. The CEO of a MultiNationalCompany wont say: "Good job Roger you had a great time with your family" or "Well done Smithers you took some really nice pictures on your weekend getaway. Its just "Robert wheres the draft for that report?" or "Damnit Robbins you're late again! One more time and you're fired!" without the appreciation that perhaps life entails more than life in the office, and that sometimes taking a 15 minute break can enhance productivity for the next 5 hours.
I do take pride in the things i do, more so in some than in others, and perhaps thats one place i have to make some adjustments. Try to make certain things matter less and other more important things matter more. But if thats not what i really want, then it just means one thing: I'm not ready for the working life yet. It's as if idealism has no place in the cubicle. I'm already starting to feel victimised by society, the sick joke of civilisation. PM Lee reduces the syllabus to ease stress on the education system, only to have teachers teach both the new and old syllabuses IN CASE. I feel sorry for kids today, for the shit they have to learn, for the pressure society (and kiasu parents) have placed on them, and for the mindset that they have, thinking that good grades = good future. They think that they definitely will get a job, they think that Singapore is prepared for the future, they think that as long as they get a good degree things will be fine. Bullshit, thats what it is.
hmm i'm digressing. Seems like there's some pent up anger in my writing. Tsk, must be a byproduct of reading Freud's Civilization and its Discontents. Yes, i am discontent. I have so much in my life to be thankful for, but i will be discontent, because it is when i perceive existing imperfection that i will strive to improve my life. And the youth today will have to do that, and to strive to be better than they could be in every aspect, or else Singapore will really cease to be a good place to live in.
Damn i'm such a pessimist. Maybe i've got all this anger cos i haven't been blogging enough.
Oh yeah and i didn't mention in earlier posts: Gong Xi Fa Cai, Wan Shi Ru Yi. Zhu Ni Jing Nian Shi Ye Yi Fan Feng Shun, Xin Xiang Shi Cheng!
But nevertheless have you had that kind of experience before? The kind that makes you stop and think: "yes. i know whats going on now. Yes. i remember what i must do. YES! i must! i will! i am! I!"
Well i kinda made a small step today, remembering: "Oh yeah i have to read up my acct textbook as well as my computing one and do my supplementary problem set for econs." and "Oh yeah econs mid terms are in 2 weeks."
2 WEEKS!
And to think school's barely started!
Sometimes i feel that i accord too much importance to the wrong things (just as many of us do), and not enough importance to the things we need to focus on. But it so happens that most of us feel the need to excel in the things that we care about, because its a passion, because its important for a side of our well being, and because we want to feel pride in these things that have shaped who we are (or will go on to shape us). And perhaps its a shame that the world doesn't and cannot see people for who they are, for the passion that people have in the pursuit of the things that matter to them. The CEO of a MultiNationalCompany wont say: "Good job Roger you had a great time with your family" or "Well done Smithers you took some really nice pictures on your weekend getaway. Its just "Robert wheres the draft for that report?" or "Damnit Robbins you're late again! One more time and you're fired!" without the appreciation that perhaps life entails more than life in the office, and that sometimes taking a 15 minute break can enhance productivity for the next 5 hours.
I do take pride in the things i do, more so in some than in others, and perhaps thats one place i have to make some adjustments. Try to make certain things matter less and other more important things matter more. But if thats not what i really want, then it just means one thing: I'm not ready for the working life yet. It's as if idealism has no place in the cubicle. I'm already starting to feel victimised by society, the sick joke of civilisation. PM Lee reduces the syllabus to ease stress on the education system, only to have teachers teach both the new and old syllabuses IN CASE. I feel sorry for kids today, for the shit they have to learn, for the pressure society (and kiasu parents) have placed on them, and for the mindset that they have, thinking that good grades = good future. They think that they definitely will get a job, they think that Singapore is prepared for the future, they think that as long as they get a good degree things will be fine. Bullshit, thats what it is.
hmm i'm digressing. Seems like there's some pent up anger in my writing. Tsk, must be a byproduct of reading Freud's Civilization and its Discontents. Yes, i am discontent. I have so much in my life to be thankful for, but i will be discontent, because it is when i perceive existing imperfection that i will strive to improve my life. And the youth today will have to do that, and to strive to be better than they could be in every aspect, or else Singapore will really cease to be a good place to live in.
Damn i'm such a pessimist. Maybe i've got all this anger cos i haven't been blogging enough.
Oh yeah and i didn't mention in earlier posts: Gong Xi Fa Cai, Wan Shi Ru Yi. Zhu Ni Jing Nian Shi Ye Yi Fan Feng Shun, Xin Xiang Shi Cheng!
posted by Kinfoong at 12:41 PM
2 Comments:
Hey Crum,
I feel discouraged from writing to you because you seldom write back and I will write minimally unless you reply more often.
But here's what I got to say to you, thank you:
Decide on your own priorities and then write them down, keep them in mind, when you make a decision to do something or not, think about your priorities, don't let other things distract you.
Maybe before you decide on priorities, decide what goals you want to achieve first, and then based on your goals, you can decide on your priorities. From time to time, ask yourself if you are any closer to your goals, if you're making any progress.
Ok
Beebee
orr kay. actually if u feel i dont reply you, you can email me your responses and ill mail u back.
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